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AKU SEDIH

AKU MAHU MENANGIS

SIAPA MAHU TEMANKU?

Tapi jika aku jerit sekalipun

Ia adalah jeritan batinku

Batinku menjerit duka

Hatiku rasa hibanya

Batinku menangis sedih

Hatiku juga terasa pedih

Aku sangat pasti aku kuat

Tapi ada yg lagi kuat

Aku kadang lupa

ada Yang Maha Kuasa

SOMETIMES

Sometimes I wait too long

I assume too much

Expect too far from reality

Dreams too weird

Act too freaki-ishly

Play too hard

Expecting too much would make you weak

Na Ja thinks her friends are running away from her

I want to scream

Instead I sketch, scribble

I want to play

But instead I slept

I want to write

Instead I read

I want to study

Instead I fill up one empty piece of paper

I want to smile

Instead crocked smile appears

I want to stay happy

Instead I cried

I stutter

I smiled

I was shy

I stayed away

I'm embarassed

I strolled down

I'm confused

I seek

IN THE MOOD FOR : Tell Me Goodbye - Big Bang

I'm in love with this song.gosh

I have been really lost from this kpop world

I FORGOT HYUNJOONGIE's BURPDAY!

Well, Anyone that knows me knows that I am really bad with birthdays.HEH

6th June.0606

He is 24 now Na.

You'll be 18 this 3rd July 2010

hmm.6 years apart.well that is not that far.

Tell me good bye oh tell me goodbyeee:)))))

baby aishiteruu..

Sometimes

Sometime I cry at stupid stuffs
Sometime I realize I sounded dumb saying something right after losing a whole lot of breath saying that"something"

OMG!i want to make a shoutout for the TV SHOWS i have been brought up with and MISSING them sooomuch cause all the shows are no where to be found

Gullah Gullah Island
RUGRATS!
HEY ARNOLD!
As Told By Ginger

as told by NA-me

she cries whenever she feels like
she cries at miraculously small matters
she cries watching her favourite-long-lost-cartoon-aired again
she cries when she has to convince people for she was innocent
she cries trying to make people believe what she didn'tdo

she cries at tiny little things I say
she cries at the sight of mother's love
she cries seeing beautiful endings
she cries while staring at someone homeless
she cries looking at children being the victims of human-less humans

That girl cries deep inside
She cries in silence
Her cries never woke up a single person
She cries listening to beautiful songs
She shed tears
Oh Yeserrie
Shedding tears she does
She tries to make it less visible
That no one would notice
The flaw she might just do is staring blankly with that hidous face
People would think she has mental problems

Well, she cries because of the tiresome trying to fit in
trying to be perfect
trying to give what this world wants from this little girl

Trying so hard that it tears her apart
Unknowingly
Silently
She had no idea others go though the same route she had taken
Others tried as hard as she did
Other tried to recreate another whole route
Paved another new street
Another original path

I know I should be talking long and wide about the drama.(below)
But life itself has too much drama that I can bearly bear which I often have to stick with it.
Enough with fantasy dramas na ja.stick to reality.part of me is trying hard to tell the inner me
Deep withing the core of this body really believes in fantasy & the power of imaginations
Two completely dofferent identities stuck in this one piece of flesh.So,What about that huh?
feel the urge??


Sometimes I cry at some stupid romantic films
Sometimes I smile at the sight of two fleshes connected by this ever-so-sweet thing called love
Sometimes I hate to see how perfect they try to portray love
Sometimes I feel ever so happy to be able to adore someone's belongings
Sometimes I ponder whether or not I will marry someone soon enough?
Sometimes my heart beats fast at the sight of the guy I adore
Sometimes I wish for selfish wishes
Sometimes I imagine a person whom I will be able to love
Sometimes I hope that perfect him would stand right by the corner of my eyes
Sometimes I day-dream owh too much that sometimes I get all confused with the night dreams.You know the one you dream at night when you are really sleeping?
Sometimes I wish to be a saviour.I will fight for this one very soon.InsyaAllah
Sometimes I am just bad with words.WELL i normally am bad with words.It's not like all these bad words come out from this mouth all the time but it is me BAD at using words.umm.arasso?(understand?in korean laguage:b)
Sometimes or is it all the time?hmph I feel really bad and mad at myself.
Sometimes I write and scribble wheneevr I have nothing else to do when I should be praying for world peace
Sometimes I think I dishonour my religion.for eg,if someone were to ask me about the history behind things happening wth my religion I'd be .UMPH.HUH?bad example.but i'm trying my best to improvise on this little detail of me
Sometimes I wonder when will I stop typing like right now?
JUST YOU WAIT.There will a lot more sometimes coming up.This is my way of self discovery.

Kamsahamnida in korean
Danke in german
Gracias in spanish

#1

Well it has been a loooong time since I last update this blog.

(I know this is like the MOST common quote that people starts with.bluerh.wtv)

Well.It's not like anyone reads this blog

(again.the common quotation.obviously i don't know what to start of with.thanks to these common quotes:B)

But you know what.I feel satisfied just by saying that so.No one's reading thus I can write

whatever I feel like writing :b

The only reason is that I forgot the email I used to activate this blog and of course the password itself.

I havefailed to update a lot of things happening throughout m

y after-SPM life.At least the one I'd imagine how it'd be

I was really hoping I can actually update on the movies & dramas I had watched and add a little review on those stories so that I can just flip through this blog to see what story actually catches this heart of mine course I DON'T REALLY HAVE ANYTHING TO DOwell actually there are a lot to be done but i just decided not to do any.like KUMON!(Procrastinator I am).What made it flutters.I WILL not be shy to talk anything about how this hea

rt that has be carved with الله‎ sometimes has been stolen by some other things but stillالله‎ has the biggest portion in this heart of mine.Hope it will last that way:)

but you now how sometimes we have this feeling where.Ahh.nevermind.It's complicated whenever we want to talk about this little fist-shaped creature of

الله‎

OKAY!

enough talking. what has stolen the spotlight of my mind?

Well I have seen this Drama like loong time ago but decided to watch lovely Hyeon Bin again!!!So i did...

I will be sharing my reviews on this drama for the next post.Have to vacuum something.

안녕!!